I never really liked to do the whole ‘New Year’s Resolution’ thing. It sounds a lil’…off to me.
And you’ve got to admit, it fades off into the year eventually (more like after the first few weeks). And they also never really felt real to me. They sound more like, you know, New Year’s Wishes or something like that.
So with that, I’d like to introduce you to my New Year’s Bucket List! (It’s like a bucket list, but for the year 😉 Kinda obvious wasn’t it?
Now, why New Year’s Bucket List? It sounds more realistic to me, it being for the year and all that, you know. Makes me more determined and has an adventure-y feel to it. Plus, the checklist part is the most exciting for me! I can’t wait to complete them 😀
So not to keep you waiting anymore, here it is!
MY NEW YEAR’S BUCKET LIST
1. Get closer to God.
This year, I want to get closer to God. It’s first because this is very important to me, and I have also been feeling quite distant from Him. He’s still here with me and all that, but I’m not giving Him the attention He deserves. He has done so much for me, putting off 5-10 minutes every day won’t hurt. So, I’m starting with a daily devotional on Youversion.com, and it’s great! It has life applications as well, so everyday I have something new to practice, along with a Biblical example 🙂
2. Lose weight.
Yup, reach my goal weight. I’ve been meaning to start last year, but it was kind of unrealistic due to *cough* some complications…and excuses…and constant binges 😯 But don’t worry! I’ve been getting great results so far, and I’ve lost about 8 Ibs. already!
3. Improve my piano/keyboard skills.
I want to master three classical compositions and be able to play many of my favorite songs on the piano. Last year I wanted to do six, but I was lazy and kept putting it off for tomorrow and whatever. Not going to happen this year. Never!
4. Finish writing a book.
I’ve been struggling with keeping to one story without jumping from one idea to another. I mean, it doesn’t even last! So what I’ve figured out last year is that Evernote is a lifesaver. It’s great when I’m cruising the net and whatnot, and I suddenly get ideas *dramatic music*. It has helped me realize that I, after all, don’t need to stop one of my books to start on another. All I needed to do is a basic plan (title, subtitle, genre, pov, summary, excerpt, and notes) and leave it there. It’s great. I’ve got like, over 125 notes written on that app, haha…
Notebooks are great too! Extremely helpful when you suddenly find yourself in some boring place. And if you don’t happen to have a notebook when your idea generator is on, you can text it out, and save it as a draft message. I have tons on my phone 😉 Hey, if you’re desperate enough to save your ideas, you’ll definitely find a way 😀
5. Get rid of my braces.
It’s almost time up! Sadly though, the results have taken a different road. My teeth are not in the correct bite, and it’s getting complicated and all that stuff. Hopefully my dentist will do something about this and fix it soon enough for me to remove my braces!
But if it doesn’t work out like that, I’m willing to spend another few months in braces in order to get ’em right. Didn’t slave my teeth for nothing!
6. Get a camera.
I’m gonna beg my dad, y’know. I’ve been dreaming of having a DSLR camera of my own so I could take pictures and videos of things happening around me! Especially during this time of my baby sister’s life, she’s so comical it has to be captured to show her when she’s older. Mwahahaha.
7. Improve my sketching and drawing skills.
I’ve got to grasp this by the reins and sit down and draw! I’ve neglected this for a bit too long and it’s causing me stress. I’d feel empty and useless, because I’ve really love this art form. Now I’m going to work on it! And yeah, that’s pencil art!
8. Wear a dress.
If you know me, I hate wearing dresses. And skirts. Horrible! Probably because of self-consciousness and worrying what other people will think of me. Well…that’s got to change. This year, I must at least wear one dress!
Not that one though.
9. Smile more.
My sister is quite known around here for a radiant smile. It gets people going. No one can ever forget that about her. But as for me, I’m more solemn and grim (due to shyness, mostly), and typically as a result of excessive thinking or mental criticism of people around me. It just…happens. Sometimes it’s self-consciousness, other times it’s because I’m (over)thinking of the consequences of my next words. But in the end, it causes regret and usually doesn’t make anyone feel like approaching me and whatnot. Unless they know me quite well. Otherwise, if you were a stranger, you’d probably want to keep away from me 😦 But that’s gonna change 😉
Btw, ain’t that kid a cutie?!
10. Get out of my comfort zone and show myself something.
I’d always promised myself that I won’t grow up to be a shybug; that, in college, I’d be known as a bold and fun and adventurous girl, like I have always daydreamed about when I isolate myself.
I hate being shy. There are many quotes about being shy and all that, saying that we’re just holding back our awesomeness so we don’t intimidate others (:D). True on some levels, but…false on many others. Sometimes it’s the only way we think we can save ourselves from embarrassment. But it’s not. It’s just a way to torment ourselves in an acceptable point of view–our point of view. Doesn’t it hurt? I feel like a trapped bird sometimes. It kills me inside to see how many opportunities whisk by because I’m convinced I’m just ‘shy’. That’s just an excuse. And it’s stupid. It’s annoying me to no end. So for this year I will, at least, just at least take a step out my little Circle of Shame and show myself that it’s still possible, that I’m still eligible of being freed from this…this horrible disease.
I mean, I just want to carry out one good conversation with someone I’ve first met and enjoy it without feeling awkward or self-conscious; without feeling exposed. I know that with God’s help, all of this is possible. If He created the skies and the oceans, if He provides food for the plants and animals, and if He has the power to defeat Satan, why won’t He help me? It’s possible. Everything’s possible with God 🙂
And…if you’re wondering, yes, this is also a way I differ from my sister.
Well, that’s all folks! Sorry for the extremely long post, but I hope you enjoyed it! I’m really going to work towards this, and I will be letting you in on my progress 🙂 It’s for sure going to be hard, but it will be fun. After all, I’m not a quitter.
Have fun fun,
P.S. What’s your New Year’s Bucket List?
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