new year’s bucket list–retrospection. (part i)

I’ve decided to just suck it up and write a post and not wait for like, the very last day of December before going through what I’ve accomplished this year. I’m really upset about finding out though. I feel so…bleurgh 😥

Anyway, lets’ just see how far I’ve gone in this thing.

1. Get closer to God.


Status: Check.

Comments: I’ve really seen how ah-cawfusnrirgs-mazing God’s been to me this year. It’s crazy. It’s just mind-boggling. I mean, I KNOW that God is good. But when He blesses me or lets certain things come together I just sit there like


And He be like


And it just feels so good to know that as His child, He’s always be thinking of me. I feel so blessed. Things haven’t gone my way, but how many times have they? Plus, it would’ve been probably a major setback for me so, yeah. I mess up way too many times. I mean, I trip on my own feet. Like, nu-uh.

2.  Lose weight.


Status: Check.

Comments: THANK GOD I DIDN’T SAY HOW MUCH. I’ve most certainly lost weight, using the Jillian Michaels workout. But I bummed out on the third week–I was so close! Things got really busy and tense since it’s a festive period and such, and school as well and blahhhh–too many freaking responsibilities. BUT–you know how they say it takes like what, four weeks before you start noticing the changes in your body, six (or is it eight?) before others start noticing it? Something like that. Anyway, yeah. I’ve binged for like 4/5 weeks now and when I went back on the scale guess what?



I was like “Whaaaaaa?”

Because I’ve been so stressed and busy and I haven’t been hungry so much, and I have a terrible broken/loose bracket and wire on my right jaw, and my wisdom tooth’s growing on my left, so it’s not been easy eating at all. Festive periods in this place are hard to get anyone to help you do a simple job and such. But anyway, it feels good. I mean, yesterday it was emphasized when this lady that I met on the mission trip came to the get-together and quietly pulled me aside and asked, “Hey, what diet are you doing?”

I’m like: O.O’

And she’s like: Seriously!

And I’m like: …I haven’t been doing any diet! I stopped like, exercise weeeeeeeeks ago.

And then my sis comes in like: >:I Your muscles are getting bigger. (And she was doing the Michaels’ with me and gave up too.)

And the lady just looked and smiled with some sort of admiration saying that I looked so elegant and stuff and I was just there thinking “But I feel so heavy and all jiggly and stuff what are you telling me woman?!”

Anyway, it happened. I can’t wait to start working out again bahahaha.

(My thoughts are too long o.0)

3. Improve my piano/keyboard skills.


Status: Unknown

Comments: Seriously, I have no idea if I’ve improved my piano skills or something. BUT–let me tell this freaking crazy story. Ready? I dont’ care!

Okay so it all started with my little sister’s toy. At the time she was a baby (two years old) she had this toy that played this LOVELY composition and I fell head over fingers on it. So one day my mom just gave it away. I was like, “NONONONONONONO” and was so devasted because now I’d never know the name of that piece. So I searched. I played online pianos with the little I could remember so that they could find it for me. I searched the company’s website what songs they used in their products. I SEARCHED EVERYWHERE. And then, I gave up.

It was only when I came across this sad wattpad short story about this poor brother and his sister that I found the song. It was on the side, and the picture looked decent. So I clicked on it.


Awesomeness, unfolded. I cried. I was so overwhelmed I started laughing. Then I decided to learn to play it. So I got my best friend, YouTube, and it taught me the song. But I only learned half of it. For two years, every time I get on the piano, it’d be the first thing I’d play. But I never finished it.

Okay, so here’s the awesome part.

A day before the Christmas (our church had a Christmas service) the service organizer called me and tried to ‘sing’ out the kind of song his son said I could play. I laughed a lot, and then agreed to play, although I knew that meant more stress (because my sis and I were also presenting a special song for the service, and we only agreed on a suitable song like, two days before the event) and THEN that meant having to learn the OTHER half of the song.


I was so frustrated. School, cake, lasagna, music, school, cake, lasagna, music. I was pulled every which way that day before Christmas, and I just couldn’t handle it. And I was so nervous because I was going to do it in front of the church, even though I knew there couldn’t be too many people (but who could say for sure, this year they put a lot of effort into it).

So…yeah. Check..ish? I mean, I memorized two pieces (well, one and a half) in like, three days and it came out well. So, hurrah!

4. Finish writing a book.


Status: I don’t even want to talk about it.

Comments: Even a stupid short story can’t make it on this list. But God help me. This year has been the messiest, eye-opening year of my LIFE, and I wish I hadn’t take it for granted. Now 2015 looks so daunting I don’t even want to go there.





Yayyyy. I finished a book! Bahahaha. Shh, I know, not one that anyone can read but I finished right? I finished it for the year! I’ve been writing almost everyday, have over 50,000 words worth of meh, and yeah! (Mhm I be using Word). So yes, in a way, I have finished a book? Well, almost! Wooh! Journal for the 2014, you’re on the way!!

*dance dance danceeeeee*

5. Get rid of my braces.


Status: Still scraping my cheeks.

Comments: So…yeah, my teeth are in no condition to be relieved of my little bracketed friends. And it’s also created this horrible lopsidedness to my face. Now when I smile one eye is squinted and the other is just glared at you. One cheek is higher than the other and more defined and…ugh, it’s such a mess. I wouldn’t see it on a mirror. I had to discover this the hard way–using a ‘true’ mirror. I downloaded it on my phone and cried in depression for two days at the thought of people even looking at me. How can they even stand my ugliness? I bothered my siblings for a whole week trying to find justice in the way I look. “Is my cheek bigger?” This and that. It annoyed them to bit. And well, I just soon had to accept the truth–I’m not as pretty as I thought I was. But somehow I’ve come to accept it. Though I wish that when I smile, my lopsidedness would lean to my left and not my right, ’cause like almost all the cute peeps have that, you know?


(to be continued. gotta go pack!)


valentine blues?


Happy Valentine’s Day! If you’re like me–I’ve got no date! Personally, I don’t mind. Currently no desire for dating anyway, and not even allowed until 18! But, whatever 🙂

It’s funny though how many others are depressed about not having a date for Valentine’s Day. Are you kidding me? You don’t have to spend Valentine’s Day with a lover, and you don’t have to spend it alone!

There are so many ways to celebrate this lovey-dovey day. Here’s my little list:

1. Pets. Pets are a great companion for this day. Although they don’t need Valentine’s Day to show their great love and loyalty to you, I think it’ll be great to spend some time eating and watching movies to them, although my dog didn’t get that luxury. He went to the vet.

2. Food. Oh…food. Technically, I’m already planning for my collegiate Valentine’s Days, and I’m 100% positive that while my friends will be out enjoying themselves, I’ll be tucked away in the dorm feeding on granola, fruits, various pastries, and single pringles! (Get it? Pun intended :D)  Although it won’t happen with chocolate. Don’t like it! (Sure going to be a problem in the far future, don’t you think?)

3. Movies. What isn’t better than watching good movies on Valentine’s Day? Movies are amazing. I don’t quite enjoy watching romance movies (I saw ‘Ew’ all the time, haha), so I guess on those days I’d be watching cartoons, animations, and comedies. A good movie always means a good mood 🙂

4. Family, friends, and God. Getting together with family, or friends (or both) and just showing your appreciation and love for their presence in your life is enough Valentine for me, I guess.  It feels awesome (and sometimes emotional) telling my parents how great they are and how crazy it is that they still love me after what I’ve put (and putting) them through. It’s the same thing with God. I love that He doesn’t need a day to show His love, and for that I’m very grateful 🙂


So I guess that’s it for my Valentine’s post! I wasn’t initially planning to do this, but I guess it just got to me. Have fun, and don’t let this day bring you down. Be creative and relax and have fun…being single has its jingle! 😀 Sorry…that just rhymed 🙄

And here’s just a little humor that contradicts the last part of my post! Haha, I love the minions 🙂


Happy Valentine’s!


P.S. Any of you got ideas for future posts?

Disclaimer: None of the pictures used belong to me. 

new year’s bucket list.


I never really liked to do the whole ‘New Year’s Resolution’ thing. It sounds a lil’…off to me.

And you’ve got to admit, it fades off into the year eventually (more like after the first few weeks). And they also never really felt real to me. They sound more like, you know, New Year’s Wishes or something like that.

So with that, I’d like to introduce you to my New Year’s Bucket List! (It’s like a bucket list, but for the year 😉 Kinda obvious wasn’t it?

Now, why New Year’s Bucket List? It sounds more realistic to me, it being for the year and all that, you know. Makes me more determined and has an adventure-y feel to it. Plus, the checklist part is the most exciting for me! I can’t wait to complete them 😀

So not to keep you waiting anymore, here it is!


1. Get closer to God.


This year, I want to get closer to God. It’s first because this is very important to me, and I have also been feeling quite distant from Him. He’s still here with me and all that, but I’m not giving Him the attention He deserves. He has done so much for me, putting off 5-10 minutes every day won’t hurt. So, I’m starting with a daily devotional on, and it’s great! It has life applications as well, so everyday I have something new to practice, along with a Biblical example 🙂

2.  Lose weight.


Yup, reach my goal weight. I’ve been meaning to start last year, but it was kind of unrealistic due to *cough* some complications…and excuses…and constant binges 😯 But don’t worry! I’ve been getting great results so far, and I’ve lost about 8 Ibs. already!

3. Improve my piano/keyboard skills.


I want to master three classical compositions and be able to play many of my favorite songs on the piano. Last year I wanted to do six, but I was lazy and kept putting it off for tomorrow and whatever. Not going to happen this year. Never!

4. Finish writing a book.


I’ve been struggling with keeping to one story without jumping from one idea to another. I mean, it doesn’t even last! So what I’ve figured out last year is that Evernote is a lifesaver. It’s great when I’m cruising the net and whatnot, and I suddenly get ideas *dramatic music*. It has helped me realize that I, after all, don’t need to stop one of my books to start on another. All I needed to do is a basic plan (title, subtitle, genre, pov, summary, excerpt, and notes) and leave it there. It’s great. I’ve got like, over 125 notes written on that app, haha…

Notebooks are great too! Extremely helpful when you suddenly find yourself in some boring place. And if you don’t happen to have a notebook when your idea generator is on, you can text it out, and save it as a draft message. I have tons on my phone 😉 Hey, if you’re desperate enough to save your ideas, you’ll definitely find a way 😀

5. Get rid of my braces.


It’s almost time up! Sadly though, the results have taken a different road. My teeth are not in the correct bite, and it’s getting complicated and all that stuff. Hopefully my dentist will do something about this and fix it soon enough for me to remove my braces!

But if it doesn’t work out like that, I’m willing to spend another few months in braces in order to get ’em right. Didn’t slave my teeth for nothing!

6. Get a camera.


I’m gonna beg my dad, y’know. I’ve been dreaming of having a DSLR camera of my own so I could take pictures and videos of things happening around me! Especially during this time of my baby sister’s life, she’s so comical it has to be captured to show her when she’s older. Mwahahaha.

7. Improve my sketching and drawing skills.

amazing pencil art

I’ve got to grasp this by the reins and sit down and drawI’ve neglected this for a bit too long and it’s causing me stress. I’d feel empty and useless, because I’ve really love this art form. Now I’m going to work on it! And yeah, that’s pencil art!

8. Wear a dress.


If you know me, I hate wearing dresses. And skirts. Horrible! Probably because of self-consciousness and worrying what other people will think of me. Well…that’s got to change. This year, I must at least wear one dress!

Not that one though.

9. Smile more.


My sister is quite known around here for a radiant smile. It gets people going. No one can ever forget that about her. But as for me, I’m more solemn and grim (due to shyness, mostly), and typically as a result of excessive thinking or mental criticism of people around me. It just…happens. Sometimes it’s self-consciousness, other times it’s because I’m (over)thinking of the consequences of my next words. But in the end, it causes regret and usually doesn’t make anyone feel like approaching me and whatnot. Unless they know me quite well. Otherwise, if you were a stranger, you’d probably want to keep away from me 😦 But that’s gonna change 😉

Btw, ain’t that kid a cutie?!

10. Get out of my comfort zone and show myself something.


I’d always promised myself that I won’t grow up to be a shybug; that, in college, I’d be known as a bold and fun and adventurous girl, like I have always daydreamed about when I isolate myself.

I hate being shy. There are many quotes about being shy and all that, saying that we’re just holding back our awesomeness so we don’t intimidate others (:D). True on some levels, but…false on many others. Sometimes it’s the only way we think we can save ourselves from embarrassment. But it’s not. It’s just a way to torment ourselves in an acceptable point of view–our point of view. Doesn’t it hurt? I feel like a trapped bird sometimes. It kills me inside to see how many opportunities whisk by because I’m convinced I’m just ‘shy’. That’s just an excuse. And it’s stupid. It’s annoying me to no end. So for this year I will, at least, just at least take a step out my little Circle of Shame and show myself that it’s still possible, that I’m still eligible of being freed from this…this horrible disease.

I mean, I just want to carry out one good conversation with someone I’ve first met and enjoy it without feeling awkward or self-conscious; without feeling exposed. I know that with God’s help, all of this is possible. If He created the skies and the oceans, if He provides food for the plants and animals, and if He has the power to defeat Satan, why won’t He help me? It’s possible. Everything’s possible with God 🙂

And…if you’re wondering, yes, this is also a way I differ from my sister.


Well, that’s all folks! Sorry for the extremely long post, but I hope you enjoyed it! I’m really going to work towards this, and I will be letting you in on my progress 🙂 It’s for sure going to be hard, but it will be fun. After all, I’m not a quitter.

Have fun fun,


P.S. What’s your New Year’s Bucket List?

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for starters.

Welcome to my blog! This is actually my fifth attempt of setting up a blog, the other four I had no reason to even have one–I was illiterate in the field of blogging; a mere preteen (kudos to those that were more successful at that age). So excuse any form of slow learning here. But yay, I have a blog 😀

So, I love to write. It’s an escape from reality and all those other clichéd answers you might have heard and will keep hearing. It’s just like that with us, y’know? But I’ll never get tired of it 🙂

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When I was a kid, I loved the fact that I could–out of my very own head–combine words into paragraphs, and paragraphs into stories. It fascinated me with what I could come up with, and how I could make my characters live such miserable lives and the devious power I had of toying with my reader’s emotions. It was crazy in an awesome way that made me feel great.

But sadly,  my dad wasn’t really a big fan of fiction, so I began to shy away from showing him my works. You see, being ashamed of the fact that I wrote stories that weren’t true got me thinking that if my dad didn’t like them, they were illegal; and if anyone found out, I’d go to jail for a long, long time. And die there. Alone. 😯

Up to this day, I really don’t know how that notion got into my head. It’s strange, the mind of a younglin…so many warped imaginations 😀

Anyhow, rest assured, friend, all that has changed. I am now aware that it is legal to throw your characters of a cliff, or have them suddenly choke on air 😯  Either way, the many advantages of being a writer has never failed me. Oh, the love 😉


So I guess it ends here today 🙂 It’s very short, but I hope you enjoyed my first post though! Writing has always been dear to me. I don’t consider myself as amazing as the other great writers out there. They are way better than me. But I do believe that if I try my best, I’ll get there, someday!

Happy living,



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